Hills and Mountains

With every day people have different challenges, they are not always the same or equal.  What people need to do is make sure that they take a moment to put themselves in others shoes.  I have been blessed lately to end up making some new connections in my life through my art.  Who know what life has for the new friends and I, yet I know that both sides in all will take some type of lesson away from it.

This week has had all types of challenges and not any of them are easy especially when dealing with those that are close to a persons heart.  When those close hurt so deeply it is never something that one can deal with unscathed.  I had someone very close to me tell me that I needed to turn my emotions off to that one person.  They did not understand when I told them that it was NOT POSSIBLE for me to do that.  As an artist I am all my emotions and my emotions are what fuel me... if I turned off my emotions to that one person that was hurting me it would overflow to those that are constantly supportive of me and then the fallout would have been grave.  All I know is that I love as much as I possibly can, and I am only the type of Daughter that my parents will allow me to be to them, I am the friend that my friends will allow, and someday possibly I will be the Mother that my children need me to be.  I will do that with all my heart and the limits to that are endless or for some only what they will allow.

Remember the abuse that we deal with we are at that time a victim of situations that are beyond our control at the moment.  The person that is abused repeatedly during an innocent time in their life without help will continue to allow themselves to be abused.  WHY.... and I have heard that a lot WHY cant they get out of it, WHY are they allowing it to happy, WHY would they allow it in the first place.  

Let me give you the beginning of my story.  Guy that I knew growing up down the street from me would come and visit and we were pals.  Then we started seeing each other and I already trusted him, he got in my head and because of the trust he knew I had in him.... well lets just say he psychologically did a mind bender on me.  Led me to believe he was doing me a favor.  When he turned on the physical abuse he already had me broken down for a while.  When he finally got tired of me he let me go completely damaged and broken.  Lets just say the next predator saw the writing on my forehead in flashing lights.... and because I was already conditioned a certain way to allow that .... lets just say it was easy for the next guy and the guy after that.

So who's fault is it that I got in toxic relationships... because that was all I really knew.  It was that first guys fault.  It took quite a bit of energy for me to see that it was not right... but it took the relationship after my rape to see the writing on the wall.  I am not saying I am better now but I am saying everyday is a step into a better future.

This post might overlap a few others but I just felt it needed to be said.

Life really is just a Chair of Bowlies!

Well truly that is what life is... a series of events that regardless will trigger another event.  It is all in what you make of it!

          With that being said... Make sure you take each day at its best.... I try to look at each day as a chance to improve myself.  Even the days that seem to be an off start or "bad hair day" "pull the covers over my head day" type things... well I look at them as Speed Bumps.  You never know what is right around that next corner or what could be hiding in the dark to try to stop you from becoming that AWESOME person you know you are!  

          What is really stopping you for advancing yourself?  Have you every asked yourself that?  I know most people have not, most focus on the WHY is this not working, WHY cant I get the job, WHY did I fail on this test, WHY don't they love me... when in all honesty we all should be looking at it as HOW can I make this work, HOW am I going to get the job, HOW am I going to ace this test, HOW am I going to love myself better so others can love me!  I am not saying that this is going to be an instant cure for everything... Yes even I suffer from a bad day from time to time and have made a promise to myself to think positively.

          A person needs to make a promise but make sure that they are ready to take that next step to their own personal Enlightenment.  Remember we are our own worst enemy... at the same time only we have the freedom to our own agency to change our thoughts and desires!

          So take a moment or two, have a sit down with yourself and reflect on WHERE you want to be in life and HOW you are going to achieve it!   Remember positive thinking results on positive actions!

Erma Bombeck said "Life is a Bowl of Cherries"

or

Mary Englebreit "Life is a Chair of Bowlies"

Life as we Deal with it

I am not one that has crossed all my media content, but I feel that today would be a good day to maybe interject a bit of other parts of my life.

I am not saying that everyone will agree or even like what I am about to say but that is the great thing about this country I STILL have the RIGHT of Freedom of Speech.  At least that I grew up knowing and that is what our Soldiers fight for everyday.  They (the Soldiers and the independent Contractors) that go and fight so that we can stay safe here at home.

We have reached a crossroads to where people seem to see what might be blurred choices in life.  This Country the Good Ol' US of A, was Conceived in Liberty and that All Men are Created Equal.  We are a Country that has it's Foundation in GOD and came about for Religious Freedom.  Yes I know that we have people from all walks of life here and I know not all of them have the same belief system.  Seriously we need to make sure we REMAIN the COUNTRY that we grew up loving and end this Terrorism.  Not only that goes on across lines of Countries but in our own Neighborhoods, in our own Communities.

Just because someone has a different religious belief that does not make them bad, but we should learn to live in peace..... I am NOT BY ANY MEANS saying we should Roll over and play dead when it comes to Stopping the Pledge of Allegiance or Singing the National Anthem.... I am just stating that EVERYONE should be more understanding and neighborly to others..... We ALL have to be vigilant at the Terrorism here at home,  It creeps in slowly and quietly.... and those that do not EDUCATE themselves properly not just see things one sided are the ones that.

The ONLY Reason we STILL have any of our GOD GIVEN RIGHTS is because of the BRAVE Men and Women that put their lives on the line DAY IN and DAY OUT while Terrorism and Tyranny hits us here at home!  Those MEN and WOMEN sign on to do things that Most of us here on the home front could NEVER even think of doing.  They are some of the bravest most honorable souls.