Growing up was never so easy for me... Other than when I was in grade school (and before) I had always had a bit of an identity crisis... not quite knowing where I fit. I am happy to say that now days I feel a bit more at home in my skin. Granted that self acceptance has a bit to do with the friends that I do keep. They are the reason that I can throw cultural boundaries out the door and work who I am. I am definitely a Country girl that loves the beach culture as well... I am as comfortable in a pair of cowboy boots as I am in a pair of flip flops. I prefer some good Country music to Rap. Sing some Operetta yet occasionally speak with a twang in my voice, and I do not mind if anyone has a problem with me cause that is something I am not going to bother with... It's not my problem. As I look around at younger friends of mine I see some of them in the same shoes I have walked a few miles in. Friends that have so much to give that their own peers take advantage and do not appreciate how amazing of a friend they truly are. Not one of us on this planet are without fault... But why do we do harsh things like make others feel unloved or unworthy! Some of those that you would assume have amazing self worth are the ones that need the most love and attention. I myself have walked around like no one could touch me but inside I was hiding. I just wish people would wake up and be considerate of each other! I know I am ranting but its high time that someone say something. I hurt when others hurt... Those who are without fault can cast the first stone and I know that person is not me!
First off Happy New Year to all and I wish all nothing but Happiness, Health and Prosperity. Not everyone will have the same feelings as I do but hey I am trying to keep my life a bit more on the positive side. I can not complain too bad... I have a roof over my head (even if I do not always feel that safe) I have a family that loves me even if sometimes some of us butt heads. Great friends that we gripe but we do not give up on each other. A job with a great boss that she not only is my boss but has become a friend. A puppy that loves me unconditionally, and last but not least my Best friend he is my Rock when I need it. He does not always say the right things and is sometimes emotionally distant but has always been there for me! Sometimes I wish he could just tear down the walls BUT I know and love him without wanting to change him. If I changed him he would not be my best friend anymore and the Awesomeness that is him would be gone. I learned a long time ago that when it comes to guys and gals they JUST NEED TO ACCEPT EACH OTHER THE WAY THAT THEY ARE. That does not mean that you cant give suggestions but do not expect them to do it! As this New Year takes flight I look into the void of what this year is to become and I see lots of future and hope that I cant wait to will it into my life. I take on a more positive outlook on the future. Why because...... well.... The Future you see is what we make it to be. Take your future into your own destiny because if not someone else will always have the reigns. I am working on not letting the small stuff bug me so much, as well as working on myself and loving myself more. If we could take a moment, just a tiny moment in all reality and go out of our way to smile more I am almost certain that we could get to a point where people are more willing to help one another. Maybe its just my hope in humanity but at least I have that to hold onto. It is one of the ONLY things that have kept me from becoming jaded at the world like most. I do wish that every single one of you take a moment and think about the story of the person you don't know near you. Who knows they may end up changing your life someday! Some of the best people in my life I have met just by chance.
